I am doing something I hate to do- skipping yesterday. I was halfway through a post and my computer froze. So, sorry. I am realizing that I can’t do it all. I really want to, but have to figure out what is most important to me. I don’t know what that is. So please indulge me as I go through what’s important. I’d really love to hear how you prioritize.
I am slightly envious of my friends that can stay home with their kids. But, I know my personality type. I need structure. Not that a stay at home mom can’t have a structured day, but I have to have my day structured for me. I’m hoping one day I can be structured enough to work for myself, but that is still a work in progress. It is a goal, and I am going to be ready to be my own boss when the time comes.
I want to bake, contribute to the PTA board, run a veggie co-op, blog six days a week, volunteer at my kids’ schools, sell Pampered Chef, host play groups, book club, and start a supper club (Grandma calls hers Gourmet). How do you do all of it? How do you fit in chiropractor visits, doctor visits (well and sick), dentists, vet, auditions, time to write book, while making dinner every night, reading, and finding a moment to play with kiddos. Where are date nights? Where is the family time? Where can I find even a minute to play Words with Friends?
I don’t want to half ass anything. I want to be the best mom possible. I want to be the wife that my husband dreamed of always having. I want to be the friend that always knows exactly what to do and say in every situation. I want to be the volunteer that makes a difference. I want to be the business person that makes a huge something out of nothing. But, how do you do it? I am working on my little things every day, but man. Oh yeah, I want the super clean house and be always perfectly put together and fashionable.
How do you do it all? These are all items I don’t want to compromise on. My day job is so demanding that I have little left when I get home- time, energy, or will. I haven’t even talked about wanting to work out, going to more movies and theatre, visiting museums, and hanging with my grandma.
I am certainly grateful to have a full time job. I am thankful to have such a full life. But I want to do it all. I want to juggle it all and still have time to enjoy a Sunday nap or sleep in every once in awhile. I want to stay up past ten and not feel sleep deprived the next day because I have to get up so early (for me). Want, want, want, want want. I know- I want it all.
But, if I didn’t want it so badly, then I would have no motivation to do something about it. So what do I do? What is my game plan? Welp, that I don’t know. I know that I have to keep plugging away. I have to keep writing every day. I have to keep baking and playing with recipes and techniques. Keep hanging out with other mommies to see what works for them, and how they do it.
How do you do it all? Or, do you let some stuff go until you do have time? And how long will you put it off? Syd is eleven and I have to drive her all over DFW a couple times a week. Easton has soccer and soccer practice. Q stays home with a nanny a couple times a week and at my in-laws once a week. I probably spend over 10 hours a week transporting kids all over town. I’ll continue shuffling kids until all are in grade school. Then I will continue to take them to activities until they can drive- five more years until Syd can help. So is that when I can do more? Or, is this a chance to find a way to do something a little sooner?
Daily Prayer: God, please tell me how to keep on keeping on. Please lead me down your path, and alert me if I get off course or wonder about paths that shouldn’t interest me. AMEN!
Daily Thanksgiving: I am thankful for the veggie co-op. My kids asked for cucumbers when Jeff made chili dogs last night. I am proud that my children love good foods.
Happiness Project Update: I am getting up everyday, doing hair and makeup, but right now I am wanting more. More time, more energy, more satisfaction. I need to keep on track and just keep on keeping on.
Making Whoopie Flavor of the Day: Nutty Mommy- chocolate cookies with a hazelnut flavored filling. Sweet, but a little nutty. http://www.makingwhoopieplano.com.