One of my Facebook friends, my daughter’s best friend’s mom, posted something that sums up everything I believe in. “Yes I’m a Christian. Yes I can be the biggest hypocrite ever. I backslide. I stumble. I fall. I stray onto the wrong path. But God is working in me. I may be a mess, but I’m His mess. And He is slowly straightening me out. And the day will come when I will be on His side, His work in me completed. And until that day I will take His hand, and let Him do in me whatever needs to be done, no matter how painful it will be for me. When He is finished, it will all be worth it.”
How can I add to that? That sums it up beautifully. Talking about it has been hard for me. I have a ton of agnostic and even atheist friends. How do I talk about the Way, Truth, and Life? How do I tell them that the only way to God is through Jesus Christ? How do I maintain a friendship with someone with polar opposite views than mine? I am accepting of their beliefs, but so afraid to share mine. I am so afraid of being judged. I am afraid of losing that friendship. But, I should be afraid of losing them forever.
I’m no crazy, and I’m no zealot. My friends know my religious background and that my dad and stepmom were very forceful with their beliefs. They were extremely religious and a little frightening, at times. I don’t want that stigma. I admit it! I don’t want to be judged or put in a situation that doesn’t feel good.
But I feel a calling. I feel that it is time for me to share what is true to me. And, I feel that I should not only tolerate it, but like it. I have been given certain gifts and talents. I doubt God gave them to me just to make me feel good. Or just to do as a hobby. I am pretty certain that God gives us gifts and talents to glorify Him. To spread His word. To better His world.
I have always struggled to find my “calling” and talents. I can easily see everyone else’s gifts and think they are silly for not using them more. But, it is hard to look at myself and see what mine are. It is hard for me to admit mine. What if I am not as good as I think? What if I am blind to my true calling? What if, what if, what if. I am called to write. So, I write. I am called to bake. So, I bake. I am called to go into work Monday through Friday. I go and try to have a good attitude. Sometimes I fall down with complaints and envy that I am not a stay at home mom, full time baker or writer. Sometimes, I am a hypocrite by telling others to have a good attitude and just decide to live in the moment like it’s your last, but then my attitude sucks. Sometimes, I don’t try. Sometimes, I give up. But, I always try again. I realize all of this. And I get scared that I am a hypocrite and an awful person. But, then I am reminded of God’s grace and that tomorrow is another day to live in a way worthy of His grace and love. I’ve heard that all my life, but it never really registered. Now it has. I will never be perfect, but I can keep trying to live in a way that glorifies God. And by accepting His love, that is all I need.
My Daily Prayer: Thank you God for my gifts and talents. Thank you for using me in a way to glorify You. Thank you for forgiveness and perseverance. AMEN!
My Daily Thanksgiving: I am thankful someone even reads this.
When I have Kardashian Kash: I will bake with Martha Stewart, just cause.
Tomorrow: Family Friday, first week of school!
Making Whoopie Flavor of the Week: Amish Paradise- like an Oreo, but not.
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